My first encounter with anything of this nature was back in 1980’s when married
I want to say now,,that if a guy reading this,thinks he fits the profile of being a “Cuckold” please watch Dr.Dawn Michael’s you-tube video’s on the subject….video’s
I willingly encouraged my then wife to be with another man,she and I where young..we had experimented with being in same room with another couple(m/f) yet no sexual contact with them.
I know I didn’t realize why it was so erotic to myself..(I at that time never even heard of the term “cuckold”) yet that is what I soon would become.
I was so needing her to do this,I bought her sexy clothes,for her to wear with her soon to be lover.
She already had someone that was interested in her,so that was the easy part,all she had to do is say “yes” to him.
Soon she had her first date with him,I acted like I had become her best girlfriend,,I could wait til she got home,,so she could get me the details of her encounter.
She did that,,exact details,..I remember thinking to myself,and even asking her then,”was he bigger,better etc.(and in all reality wishing she would say “yes” he is the best!
She did say that he was the best,,and she really wanted to keep seeing him.
I didn’t realize it then,,but I was becoming ….a sissy..feminization the process was beginning.
The idea of her using a strap-on..on me started me wanting that.
Bear in mind, at this time there was no such thing as the “internet”,,so no way of researching what was going through my mind,,I had read Nancy Friday’s books, Men in Love related to me(as I did relate to being with a man sexually).
Needless to say,,I basically sabotaged our marriage..we divorced within a few years.
I hope if someone reads this,it may educate them,,to seek knowledge of polyamory,gender etc, as I would remain in chao’s for quite a few years..not understanding.
Questions to myself still remained,..why was I not jealous when she cuckolded me,why did it turn me on so much?,,why did the idea of me being fem turn me on?
I very much don’t blame her for what occurred,which I may have at first.
A post I made on another site about being a cuckold called swingers delight
A video by Dr.Dawn Michael on you-tube
A post at Sexpert.com..post