Not until in my mid-thirties did I become involved in what I would call a truly some what..”open cuckold relationship”.How this started was my girlfriend and I started talking openly about our sexually fantasies,,,she mentioned a guy,..at work he was always hitting on her,,,she told me she had known him a long time..,she knew other women whom had gone out with him,,the common theme about him was,,he is very well endowed.I then asked her if she wanted to find out for herself?..her reply was …”I have in fantasy..”.I replied..”I’d like to watch you and him,,fucking”…she was a bit surprised at first..then grinned and said”..I might just do it!(I found her reply very erotic,,yet didn’t understand why,,just did).A few weeks went by…one day she calls me at lunch ,,says to me..” you know who’s coming over to my place…and I going to let him fuck me silly,I’ll call you back when we are done”..bye….Now I was forced to wait and contemplate.”OMG”..I was going crazy..I was extremely turned on,,was having a difficult time focusing on my work,yet wait is all I could do.
Like so many new relationships,my girlfriend and her new friend,,found every chance they could to get together to fuck. After about 3 months,,I found myself at a adult sex shop buying a strap-on dildo…I wanted her to peg me,..I had mentioned this to her,,she thought it would be good and exicting,so this was my next step toward being “Fem”(yet at the time it didn’t occur to me)
A first she just pegged me..then we would have our normal love-making type sex. Then,,,one day while she is pegging me she says to me..”I bet you wish you had a big black cock in your mouth,dont you”…as I moaned,,I whimper in a very fem way..”I think I would”…then she replied..”yeah you can be my cock sucking sissy-boy,I will still love you”…then she pulled out of me..took the strap-on off,,came around in front of me,sitting on couch,,spreading her legs before me,,,she then said”suck on me,,make me cum..imagine your boy-pussy is being fucked by a real man,like my new boyfriend”..I was soon imagining just that as I performed..cunnilingus on her.She talked dirty to me as I pleasured her,,mentioning her and I where going go shopping for some sissy clothes for me,,how she knew this very sexy young black guy,,she thought that she could set me up with…I stopped sucking her for a moment,looked up at her ,then asked her..”are you trying to get rid of me?”,,she smiled,,and replied “no..I love you..yet I also need a real man too..and I want you as you are,,a sissy ,,that give the greatest,,cunnilingus…and bet once you start sucking cock..which by the end of the week,if I have my way,you will truly be doing,,as well as instead of me pegging you,,,it will be a real black man fucking you”.
She did as she said she would..by Saturday night…in a parked car,behind a old warehouse,,I found myself sitting next to the gent she mentioned(black guy,I will call him William) watching him unzip his jeans, then revealing his beautiful cock..I in moments was licking,and sucking it and within 10 minutes he was squirming about,moaning out”I going cum”gripping his cock tightly with my lips..feeling his warm cum squirt into my mouth..swallowing it as fast as I could..I’ll never forget how good it felt to have him cum in my mouth,how good it felt to give him pleasure.(my first blow-job)..note (I have been Autofellatio(self-sucking myself since age 13)
After that,after telling my girlfriend that I really enjoyed it,,,she accepted it by saying”I knew you where a fem-boy type..now you know”
After that William began coming over to my place,at first I would just give him a blow-job,,hang out a bit and talk..then he’d leave.
One day talking with my girlfriend,she said to me”has William fucked your boy-pussy yet”,,I replied ” no but we had talked of it,,and I told her that I really think I am ready to let him”,she smile,,and said”admit it you wish you where a lady when your sucking his cock,dont you”..kinda embarrassed ..I replied”yes,I guess I do”,her reply was” ask him if he would like you to wear you” new garter and thigh-highs”..and that you want his cock in you like a lady”
Later that day he called,,said he could use a good blow-job,that he had,had a stressful day.My reply was” I need you to do that,,but I also need you to make me your “lady”..need you to bend me over and slam your big black cock in my pussy..fill me full of cum”
I was ready for him,,clean,,and ready to layed..dressed with my thigh-highs and garter,,a short dress..red lip stick.When he arrived he was pleased..smiled and said”I like you being lady like”as I drop to my knees,unzipped his jeans and took his cock into my mouth,sucking him for a minute or so,till he had a raging hard on..I helped him out of his jeans,,,I grabbed the vasoline ,I had set on the coffee table..rubbed it on his cock..looked up at him and said” if you don’t mind,from now on will you call me Michelle,instead of Michael..because from now on,I wish to be your lady-boy friend..and you my Man“.(After that he aways called me Michelle,even my girl friend soon was)
William was soon sliding his fat 8” cock into me as I bent over the coffee table,the moment he was fully inside me..I knew I should have been a lady..having him in me was as complete a feeling as I had ever had,it was like I knew my place!
The dynamics of the whole scenario..I thought I truly loved “Jane”(my girlfriend) and her I.In a way looking back though,I think I imagined our relationship in a idealistic model of what I now call the “Queen Concept”her as ruler,she can be allowed to have any mate she chose,my duty was to serve her as she wished,and I was totally submissive to her.After I started seeing William..I asked her,if she would now join William and I in a true Traid type relationship,her reply was “I am happy,however Don(“her lover)doesn’t what you to have your cock in me any more”,I told her I understood,,and(that was 15 years ago and I have never just my cock since,except to masturbate)To make a long story short,,within 6 months William moved to the west coast..and Jane is married to Don and as a couple kids,I was alone again.
After about 2 months,,I was in search of a new “Mate”,I was literally in heat,,and needed to be bred.I started going to chat rooms looking ,describing myself as “White 100% bottom seeking black top man”,at that time (2001)..I had a lot of luck on Gay.com chat,yahoo chat finding guys..and to my surprise a lot of married black guys whom just wanted their cocks sucked,,within 6 months ,15-20 guys on average(all black) mostly married guys whom I would regularly give blow-jobs to (they never wanted to fuck me,most of them said it seemed too gay).I would see few gay or bi guys whom would fuck me,and I was always looking for more..I just wasn’t find right one,,I wanted a very professional black top man,basically straight,yet could treat me like a lady . Several of the married guys fit that profile,yet they where content being married,and have me routinely suck their cocks..(which I was happy to pleasure them) at that time,,I was in a constant state of “being in heat”,,I was careful,selective,thank-god,,yet looking back..there are many risks..and if I didn’t get to suck cock everyday,,,something was wrong,and I was calling one of the guys(my regular tops)asking if they wanted a blow-job.By calling and asking..I was becoming ,,”Known”(my guys where telling ,guys they knew to call me for a great blow-job..I was even going to a few..”man caves”..where a group of them hung out,,and would give them all blow-jobs(one night 6),those guys,,it was getting common to do..everytime,,as I was leaving..I would say”next time you all have to fuck my pussy”(all these guys where married,I had got to know them,and every one of them would come to my place now and then alone for a blow-job,,yet not one had fucked me.So anyway my friend whom had the “man cave”..called few week later told me to stop by sunday for the game, I replied”only if I get fucked by all of you”,he replied..”we all talked about it ,and we all will”. Believe me,when I say..I was very excited..Sunday morning found me busy cleaning,shaving,douching my bottom,I had bought a new dress,and thigh-high w/ garter,I wanted to as sexy for them as I could.Game time came,as I walked in the door to the “man-cave”..I got some good looks and oooh’s,..I then said” I here to be bred by all you studs,,who’s first”,in moments one of them gestures with his hand pointing to the back room(where they always take me for a blow-job,,private),he and I went in,closed the door.I helped get his pants of,sucked him til he was good and erect,,I had condoms and lube,,so got it on him lubed him,there is washer and dryer in there,,I leaned onto the washer,pulled my skirt up,turned my back and bottom..to him,,and said”please fuck me ,like I am a lady”,,and within moments his cock was going in and out of me,,and within 5 minutes ,he was moaning,jerking about,and climaxing..I did everyone the same,in half a hour,all had fucked me except my favorite”Robert”..he and I went through same routine,,except ..I said to him as he got his pants off,,”No Condom for you,,I’ve wanted you to fill my pussy with your cum ever since I met you,I waited long enough,,”..he didn’t let me down
I kept this life-style up for 4 years(over 100 different black guys in all),then in 2005..I just decided ,no more,,and gave up searching for anyone(male or female),,I have been celibate since 2005,except for masturbating
I have wondered if a couple,where the male is obsessed with idea of seeing his wife/girl friend with another man, if they might explore this, where both are openly envolved,her helping him,maybe even pegging him,..I do believe..in our society”..we are in the “Dark Ages”..as far as openness.and helping each other,understand one of our most basic needs
Imagine a couple where the male is wanting to be cuckolded..what if they as a couple could find a individual (call him a “sex therapist“my he could be someone like myself,totally fem ,non-threating as far as taking her away from the husband/boyfriend) that was safe for her(a male)..to first(meeting) would just perform “cunnilingus”, on her as the husband/boyfriend observes?…if this went well..(all three in agreement)note…the idea of the husband/boyfriend..receiving “fellatio” while she watches ….could be discussed (I have personally done something similar with several couples..in that I was already servicing(performing fellatio on the husband,and had been once a week for about 2 months..when he ask me if next time he could bring his wife)….so I believe he had built up a big trust in me.felt at ease with me..I told him I thought it was a good idea,that I truly believed openness(when I see a married guy,I tell them,,if you can,,I am going to see Michael(Michelle),,for a blow-job)..I don’t like hiding,secrets etc….My Pre·req·ui·site’s to see anyone are (Number 1..I don’t put my cock in women or men,,,,clean,well kept,Kind,no drugs or drunks etc…no STD’s…honest…no rudeness in anyway..no stupid people,..no bdsm stuff )..this has kept me safe all these years…also if we could become a more” Honest Open Society“..thus embrace what really being “Human ” is there should have been many more couples,,that I could have been seeing!…just a thought
The Couple’s I seen in this context…had a lot going for them,openness being their most vital virtue!…even the couples where the lady simple watched as her husband/boyfriend were in the “Act” of me giving them a blow-job,..or the actual real life event of seeing me,seeing their “man”..seeing their “man’s” cock sliding in and out of my bottom..then seeing their man squirming,moaning..as he pumps his cum,,in my mouth or my bottom..believe me,,,they all said it was “life changing”,and in a good way!